dr livingstone: your edit, i presume?

What a strange, lucky day yesterday was. My passport that went missing when our lovably idiotic post room workers sent it second class instead of special delivery turned up at the embassy, EMAP is generously sponsoring the salon[london] event I'm running in August, my 2nd year viva went off without a hitch, and I started the edit on my film class short film. All in a day's work, you know.

Though it took me the better part of two hours to edit two minutes of film (a very rough edit, I should add), I didn't mind at all. It's such an engaging process, though a bit of a nightmare for anyone with even the smallest designs on perfectionism. I thought that we didn't shoot enough takes during our weekend shoot, though I see now that we probably shot too many. I also suppose that this is where storyboarding becomes worth its weight in gold. I always thought that storyboarding was a bit airy-fairy and couldn't really see the point, but I realise now that it's the equivalent of creating a very detailed outline before writing an essay. It makes it much easier to go through all the kazillions of takes to find exactly the shot you're looking for in the edit. If you know you want a close up on a certain character's face while that character is saying certain lines, you can get through your edit a lot faster than if you haven't got a clue what shot you want and where you want it.

It also transpires that Final Cut Pro is a lot easier to use than I thought it was. I don't know why I couldn't figure it out before. I'm sure there are lots of interesting effects and shortcuts which will make editing more fun in the future that I still haven't learned, but I've got the most essential skills which means I can at least get a half decent edit thrown together. It's all so exciting. I love learning new stuff! So we'll be finishing off our edits in a few weeks time and then we're having a screening (how very quaint) for our last class, where we'll watch all the different edits. It'll be like watching ten different, yet all very bad, short film versions of Holby City. Probably funnier though as you'd be surprised how hilarious bad editing can be...

the one minute "found" footage film exercise

This is a hilariously poor, yet somehow quite bemusing, one minute "found" footage film project. It had to be made using stuff I already had and be no longer than one minute with no other sound than what had already been recorded.

Don't ask why I already had a clip of me saying, "this is a film about ducks." Let's just call it serendipity.

Special props to the kid in the park, who still gets a laugh from me every time, and to BC for humouring me...

Directing: a socially acceptable form of tyranny

"But at a certain point, and I don't really know...people have asked me this. I don't know exactly what it was that pushed me towards directing, but I think it was a naive notion that if I directed I would be able to play all the roles. A kind of greed."

~ Peter Bogdanovich

I'm about half way through my film-making class now and I'm pleased to say, it's growing on me. After the first night's class, where I walked home absolutely flummoxed as to how anyone could possibly conceive of High School Musical 3 as their favourite film of ALL TIME, things have gotten a lot better. We had a DP (director of photography for those not schooled in film parlance) come in last week who was interesting, engaging, and very informative. Most of my fellow students have turned out to be fairly intelligent, and though he's Hollywood and I'm Art House, the sheer enthusiasm and just plain niceness of our instructor has been a blessing in disguise.

As part of our course, we make a film - obvious, right? What kind of film-making course would it be if we didn't make a film? We wrote the scripts and organised some actors and had our film shoot last weekend. There's so much taken for granted in the making of a film, so much that goes on behind the scenes. You're watching this explosive row or tender love scene, but you don't see the 10 people standing just behind the camera, or the boom mic literally just out of frame. The fact that film makers have their own language - I mean we all know the clich�s of "quiet on set!" and "cut!", but I was a bit surprised to find that the 1st AD and the director actually do say these things - there's a whole roster of crap that has to be said before the camera starts rolling or the actors start moving.

I loved directing the film. It's incredibly intimidating initially as you're given complete creative control, but you're also given a shoulder full of pressure as you want what you're watching on the monitor to look good. I also learned that you don't actually watch the actors while you're directing, you watch the monitor. Makes sense I suppose... Our amateur actors were brilliant and so patient - if this experience is in any way reflective of what being a screen actor is like in real life, I don't know why any of them enjoy doing it. Now stage acting is something else altogether, at least you get to build consistency and maintain a character over a defined period of time. But having to repeat the same scene over and over again - it's inanely robotic. It's the behind-the-scenes people on the set who get to have the most fun: the director, and the DP, and the 1st AD - they're the people who are really making the interesting decisions.

So now we're spending the next few weeks in the editing suite, putting our short film together - buffing up a little diamond. I'm completely hooked - I love the creativity, the collaboration - the fact that you get to work with a great team of people is brilliant, the pressure, everything. It's amazing. I want more.

the poetics of film school

Turning to the Page

I remember that cavernous silence

after my first declaration of love,

then, feeling I must have been misunderstood, saying it again,

and, years later, with someone else,

exclaiming, "That was so good!"

and the foreign language she - who was

speaking English - used in response.

I learned there's nothing more shaming

or as memorable as an intimacy

unreturned. And turned, therefore,

to the expected silence of a page,

where I might simultaneously assert

and hide, be my own disappointment,

which saved me for a while.

But soon the page whispered

I'd mistaken its vastness for a refuge,

its whiteness for a hospital

for the pathetic. Fill me up, it said,

give me sorrow because I must have joy,

all the travails of love because

distances are where the safe reside.

Bring to me, it said, continual proof

you've been alive.

So I mentioned in one of my last posts that I bought two new books of poetry the last time I went to Oxford, one of which was Stephen Dunn's 2004 The Insistence of Beauty. I must not have paid very close attention when I was picking it out as I read the whole thing last night and was somewhat disappointed. The only poem I really liked was this one above, Turning to the Page. The rest of the poems feel too watered down, too unfocused, and though it sounds strange, not enough about words. I think he loves himself more than he loves words and it shows on the page.

I don't really love the poem above, but I think the last two stanzas are brilliant and perfectly encapsulate two of the 'big' ideas of writing. One is the how and why we write, the need to validate a life lived in words and on paper, to understand actions through disciplined phrasing. I love especially 'mistaken its vastness for a refuge' because I think that any writer can understand the feeling - sometimes a blank piece of paper is a curse, a taunt. But most of the time it is a refuge, 'a hospital for the pathetic', the melancholy, the lonely and I think he captures this sentiment very well. The other thing I loved about this poem is its undercover reference to poetic history - the Wordsworthian 'emotion recollected in tranquillity' which comes through clearly in the first half of the poem, but especially in the idea that 'distances are where the safe reside.' Personally, I don't agree with Wordsworth's poetic prescription, but still it's interesting to see contemporary poets striving toward this model and how it works itself out in their poems.

In other completely unrelated news, I had my first digital film-making class last night. I think it will be fun to learn how to make a film and finally get off my lazy arse and work out how to use Final Cut Pro, but I'd forgotten what some aspiring 'creatives' are like. I don't want to pre-judge my fellow students too harshly, but why is it that people are just desperate to do something as a career when they hardly even like the medium they so desperately want to work in. I took this class because I love film and have always wanted to learn how to make films so that I can mess about on my own. I don't necessarily want to work in the film industry or become a filmmaker - I'd just like to learn more about it. Like most of the other art forms I'm interested in, craft is fascinating to me. For me, film should be a marriage between storytelling and photography - all my favourite films balance this well, even if I do tend to favour films which are technically or cinematographically (making up words again...) more interesting than the story they're trying to tell. I suppose Russian Ark is a good example of this - as stories goes, this one is pretty meh, but shooting an entire 90 minute film in one single take is nothing short of miraculous.

And this is where the film-making class gets really interesting, because I don't even think any of these other 10 people who profess to be desperate to work as film-makers have even thought about the visual side of film. Maybe it's because I have a background in photography that I get so hung up on the visual and the cinematography, but I nearly died when, at the end of our first course, the instructor gave us 20 seconds to decide on our favourite film and share it with the class. I can't remember them all, but of the ones I can people said:

Annie Hall

Kill Bill 2

When Harry Met Sally

All About My Mother

High School Musical 3 (Sadly, this isn't a joke)

Steam: The Turkish Bath

I have to make a short film with these people!!!!! The course instructor said his favourite film was Star Wars, which even I can admit isn't a horrible answer - if we're going for cinematic history and breaking new ground - but it's a coward's answer. I toyed with saying Lars Von Trier's The Five Obstructions - probably the only film I've ever watched more than 5 times - or Andrea Arnold's incredible Red Road , which was shot largely in Von Trier's Dogme 95 style - a movement I'm very interested in that focuses on 'purity' in filmmaking: hand-held cameras, shot on location, no additional sound work, natural lighting and so on. In the end though, I went with Bertolucci's 1970 film The Conformist which I saw last year at the BFI on a big screen. It's possibly the most visually stunning film I've ever seen - the story is compelling enough to hold your interest for two hours - but the amount of care that went into the photography and editing of this film is obvious in every single frame. To make a movie with such precision and such artistry, this is what I think the goal of film-making should be.

It's all for fun anyhow, something to distract me from my looming chapter deadline. And I'm looking forward to seeing the final project and messing around on my own in between. So keep your eyes peeled - in 10 weeks I'll have a monstrosity of a short film created by a group of rom-com loving 'storytellers' (as the course instructor now insists on calling us) to post up here for your viewing pleasure.